Missing You

Sun, 25 Jun 2006 23:19:08 GMT

"Oops! My image for this link is no longer here."

Such an elegant header. I feel like someone has to make my LJ a paid account and make something with it cause like, it's going down the tubes.

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 21:51:20 GMT

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

T. Look!

"Watch This Smile"

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 19:45:03 GMT

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"Faithful" - Best thing in my life.

"Wake My Body Up" - So different from his usual stuff but still so great.

"Gloria" - Totally has a special meaning in my life.

"What's The Use" - Not my personal favorite but still such a pretty song with simple but amazing piano chords.

"LeaveFull" - Never fails to make me smile.

"I've Just Seen A Face" - I don't know why, but I totally have a soft spot for that cover.

"I'd Rather Be Lonely" - The track is not the best quality evah but it is such a great song.

"You'll Ask For Me" - Love it.

"Missing You" - My devotion for it will never die.

.......And just because he's so intense and passionate when he plays and sings. And so beautiful to stare at.

Nowww here comes the beauty licking.

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 07:43:47 GMT

You people are ugly. You know who you are.

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 03:51:41 GMT

I F YOU ALL.

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 02:59:25 GMT

This is all my fault now? SHE says gay people are disgusting and IIIIIIIII am the trouble maker? What the feck?!

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 09:58:44 GMT

Best. Night. Ever. in FF land.

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 04:17:57 GMT

Yeah, it's just sad that the thread of the only true thing I love and stand in OTH is the one I can't get into.

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 02:56:37 GMT

TJ LOVES LIZZIE HARDCORE!

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 11:30:09 GMT

12.58 AM. This is just bad. I should be sleeping. I work tomorrow, I worked today and I'm obviously not in slumber land. I love my job, I really do, it's hard and crazy but I really enjoy it and we have such a strong and close team, it's great. But it's so time consuming.

Is it possible to be physically and emotionally moved by a song? If I didn't know before, I know it now.

"Gloria"

I have so much to say and yet, I don't feel like bringing myself to that. I have all these things, thoughts and feelings going on with me, around me. Sometimes I just can't. I have been feeling pretty sad most of the time and I'm emotional nowadays. I cry, I suck.

The only thing I look forward to is my BFFs coming back next week. I must sound pathetic. And I am. I've been holding onto little things, just to make sure I was doing okay for the next day and now I feel like I run out of things to hold onto.

My baby, the oldest one who's 8, had an accident, nothing really serious but he got hurt pretty bad and he's all miserable and hurting. I'm worried. My grand mother has been hurt, 4 ribs fractures. My sister is crying and even more emotional than I am.

Mon just made me cry.

I'm envious of my friends. It's such a bad thing to say but sometimes, it's just how I feel. They're out there, somewhere in the world. They go out, think about themself, study, drink, have fun... just be 19. And I'm not. As some may know, I was studying in NZ with 2 of my chicks, last year. But I had to go back to Tahiti for some family issues. My grand mother wasn't feeling okay, my brother in law got into an accident and had been burned severly, my sister was depressing and they were even on the verge of a divorce, my mom was pressuring me everyday to go back to Tahiti, her illness was worsening. And me being away wasn't helping. Plus I had stuff going on over there and I came back to Tahiti. It all came to me. Now I realised that I wished for that, being away, leaving everything and just taking care of me. I feel so bad thinking that way, I must be a horrible person.

I have my friends there, I have The Guy, too. But I feel lonely. But that should change pretty soon. I just have to keep on going for a week and it's gonna be okay, it has to.

I still don't wanna talk about the stuff that's been going on that's why I still talk about stuff I don't care about.

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 07:54:56 GMT

Just got home. Me. dead.
Sleep.

Fri, 16 Jun 2006 09:04:50 GMT

So. I've been posting on LP thread the past few days. And I don't care what you people are saying, I liked it.
BL thread blows nowadays, I don't like Sophia thread for reasons I will not say publicly and really, I started posting on LP cause I was bored and just wanted to see if they were going to ignore my soul. Turns out they didn't and I had some precious conversations about Tyler, WTL, books and met some great people over there. Plus, I just got myself a Tyler's song I didn't earn before, so it makes it all greater for me. The sight of LP still bothers me but it's not about who I like or dislike on the show, it's alllllll about the posters and the souls behind the shippers. I majorly don't care about OTH, I have been hating on that show, its character and its storyline for a long time and I post on threads I don't even like the ship. Like, do I really care about NP? Psh, no. Has NH stopped aggravting the hell out of me? Of course not. Do I slightly enjoy the thought of LP making out? Hell, no. But I post. Why? Because I want to. That's all. And I'm glad I am cause I'd be missing out on knowing great people. Of course, I'm Out Topic all the time since I cannot discuss over LP and just ignore all of the caps, LP-related post but I still enjoy. And if for that, I confuse and you think less of me, I don't care. Ha.

...I realised I don't know how to post pictures and insert a "cut", so my pic!spammage? Down the tubes.

As for my life, still going crazy. But I don't like talking about serious matter.

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 08:15:49 GMT

This is bad.

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 04:05:49 GMT

Third update today. I have no life.

So. I’m done watching episode 317 of OTH. Shameful thing to say is that I actually caught myself thinking “hey, I’m not disgusted by it, I actually like it”.
I enjoyed most of it and was…

+ hurting with Karen, Moira is so amazing, it’s not even funny.

+ moved by Brooke trying her best to be there for Lucas while trying to figure everything out and be strong for herself while helping people she cared about.

+ Enjoying every BL moment, they’re so in love. Aw.

+ Outraged by NH.

+ Smiling at BP scenes.

+ Angry at Mark for making me dislike Haley so much with his NH.

+ Longing for some BH scenes.

+ liking Rachel, something I’ve been doing for a quite while.

+ Bothered by the NH 70 I Love You’s.

+ Laughing at Chad’s pathetic attempt at crying.

+ thinking Dan should go to hell. Dude, he killed the bird! And totally spit on Keith's grave.

+ hit by the fact that LP SO love each other.

+ Scared by young Keith’s ghost.

So there it is. Now I think it’s time for me to make myself a future.

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 01:28:54 GMT

Second update of the day. Why? Because I can.
So I didn't get to work today, which was pretty sweet. I've been sharing my time with talking with one of my dearest friend, downloading the only Walk The Line clips I have found, grieving over Everwood, organizing my WTL's PB, and eating ice cream as lunch and gushing about WTL and Everwood all at once. It was pretty nice to do nothing but chilling. Calm before the storm as we say since I work tomorrow. Yeah, Sunday.

So next Saturday, I have my day off. It's my sister's birthday. And since my nephew's is not long after it, we're gonna make both all at once. It's gonna be sweet. I've had my sis' present for a quite while, like, 2 weeks. It's an elegant leather necklace with a colorful mother of pearl and...a pearl. I think she'll like it.

But I'm in big trouble. I have no idea on what to get for my baby. I mean, what do you buy for a 4 years old kid? Sigh. He has every piece of clothes he wants, every toy, the kid has everything.

He's obsessed with his hair, I might have to find something like, cool stuff for hair. God, this is hard.

EEEEEE! Just realised, my BFF and chicks are gonna come home in less than 2 weeks! WoOt WoOt!!!!1! [ /14years old]

And anyone who wants to make me some prettyful avatars, I'm open. And banners, too. And a new layout. Just.. pick one.

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 00:15:59 GMT

So, I really wanna change my layout. For multiple reasons.
But of course, I can't make art to save my life and changing a layout would be as hard as listening to one of Paris Hilton' tracks.
Therefore, I'll just pic!spam soon.
Guesssss what will be the subject and you'll get an old cookie. =)

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 02:43:44 GMT

Is it possible to quit life?

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 04:57:44 GMT

Life is crazzzzzyyy. I barely have time for me, it's just sad. Work is crazy. And when I get home, I have to do my brother's teacher job crap. I haven't even talked to my BFF in forever even though she finds the time to get online, I just can't even talk more than 2 minutes without having other junk to do for my brother. God, I wish I hate my family. Things would be so much easier. 15 days and she's back! I LOV-
CRAP! Totally forgot about The Guy. Damn. Phone. I gotta go.

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 09:53:32 GMT

Brutal Honesty Meme

This is Lizzie because Summer is to lazy to do this herself ;) But I'm sure if she was the one typing this she would tell you all to GET OFF YOUR FAT ASSES AND GO AND TELL HER WHAT YOU THINK. WHORES, ALL OF YOU.

:-)

Wed, 31 May 2006 08:50:16 GMT

Calla totally gave me that idea so like, yeah.
It's all about you, beach.
And I love Punk, dearly.

http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=0ECCEAD453523E49

Bear with the fugliness of the link. I SUCK AT COMPUTER.
Leave me alone.

-I guess it can be considered as my 1st voicepost?-

Mon, 29 May 2006 04:08:53 GMT

My wisdom tooth hurts so much. And now the pain has reached my ear, too. Since it's all connected or whatever. There's only 4 painkillers left and I'm keeping them for work tomorow cause of course, drug stores are closed or don't have some anymore. I can't go to the clinic cause I work all day and by the time I finish, everything's closed. Next week end, I'm doing a sight at one of our hotel on another island, I'm working on Sundays and I'm pretty sure I'll work on Monday even if we're not supposed to cause it's some religious celebration. God, I whine, I whine. Well, guess what? Bear with me, people. I need songs, like great songs. Also, I miss my friends so much. Less than a month and they're here. I can't wait cause I've been really melancolic nowadays, especially with stuff that is happening. I have my boys with me but that's just not the same. They're my male bffs but I feel like my life is missing of something and that's my chicks. I need them in my life. God, I've been so needy recently. I have noticed. What can I say? I need love.

Thu, 25 May 2006 08:50:09 GMT

I'm not writing what's wrong in my life. I don't wanna talk about it and people actually don't care about what I am saying anyway. It's always the same. You tell you're sad, they virtually hug you and move on to other stuff. They're too focused on their own problem to pay attention to other's. That's understandable.
I'm just so tired of feeling that way about life. Tired of feeling sad and depressed. Watching the person I love breaking down in front of me. Watching myself sinking pshychologically. I just want something else.

Fri, 19 May 2006 09:08:18 GMT

I don't like our new manager. She aggravates me so much. She's SO condescending and stuff. UGH. And I know she doesn't like me and makes it obvious. I couldn't care less, I'm better than that. And I don't have much choice anyway. [/boring] What's going on with the world nowadays? Life or Fate or whatever are having that secret mission that consists in bringing my siblings down. This week has been ignoble for my sister and I just learnt my bro almost had a car accident cause of a freaking moron. I miss Calla! I feel like we haven't talked for the past forever and I don't like it! And Lizzie. Oh, Lizzie. Where are you all my life? Chen, eat my nose. Katie, I heard. F/cking Marissa died! HA! Um, I love you so much. *Bows to the other I don't mention, I gotta sleep*

Thu, 18 May 2006 04:48:18 GMT

Okay, some random whores yelled at me at work. It's always nice. I finished at 5h30. I don't even see the rays of sun when I get home.
And my sister won't let me talk to her on the phone. So all I can get is like, 5 minutes on MSN. Lovely.
And I just re-read my last entries. Boo, so many grammatical mistake. =(
Never update at 1am.

Wed, 17 May 2006 07:57:17 GMT

So.
I spent last week end at my sister because I knew she was depressing and pretty much down. She generally is when her husband (who's an airlew crew) is away. It's been a week he's lost somewhere in NY, so my sister was un-surprisingly a wreck. But I felt that she acted like, distant and was feeling a little frustrated or something. I just sensed something was wrong but blamed it on the fact she misses my brother-in-law like crazy and the stuff she has to deal with recently. -Yeah, one of her student's father have sued her because his son lost his glasses. YEAH. Bastard. So anyway, tonight she needed to talk to me. She was in cries, listening and talking to EP (Elvis Presley. Total break down.
She has miscarriaged.
It just killed me. Neither of us knew that she was pregnant, and I'm the only one knowing she has lost her baby. I feel so helpless knowing I can't make her feel better. She means everything to me and it pains me to see and hear her so broken. She has already lost a child but she was 18 and I was just 4 so I don't remember anything. Now, I just wanna kill the pain she's going through and somehow make her feel okay. I talked to her, texted her, stalked her and I think she's feeling a little better. I believe my brother-in-law is coming back on thrusday so I think it's gonna be okay when he'll be there. I hope so.    I miss my friends so much. Can't wait for them to come back, less than 2 months to go! Sweet!

So that kinda was a serious moment so I'm just gonna say confusing things to remove the awkward moment.

Oh, I am bitter for OTH being picked up. And you know what's even worse? It's been picked up over Everwood? Like, SERIOUSLY! That piece of crap over EVERWOOD?! WHAT HAPPENED TO THIS WORLD? WHERE HAVE SANITY GONE? I hate them all.
The only way for me to be happy that OTH is coming back is if Brooke has left Tree Hill to join Chris on Tour and have passionate with him. That's it. BL is gonna fucked up anyway, and I mostly don't care. LP can happen for the love of you, I still don't care. I just want Brooke out of there, without being screwed again. And that means having babies with Keller. And Lucas dying of bad STD he caught with Todd, Ellie's hidden ex-boyfriend.
Holy Jesus, Everwood. EVERWOOD. *bawls desperately*

Um, saw that somewhere so yeah. Having like, 4 LJ friends, I know it's gonna be... sweet.

The problem with LJ: We all think we are so close, but really we know nothing about each other. So I want you to ask me anything you want to know about me. Ask away!